Does Everyone Feel It This Deep

I came to this world, it was my choice

I eagerly awaited my turn

Happiness! They said I would rejoice

And oh, all the things I’d learn.

I came with hope, it was my right

I wanted to get back home

Endurance! Eyes straight ahead, I won’t lose sight

I’m so anxious to get back home.

I came fully equipped, or so I thought

Ready to take on this life

Learning! Here I am, ready to be taught

About everything; sure, even strife.

I came, I saw, I tasted defeat

My experiences caused such pain

Humility! I know what it is like to be beat

To be an outcast, a vagabond like Cain.

I came with stamina; I would endure

No caving in for me

Courage! For all the pain there is a cure

What will be does not have to be.

I came fully equipped; I said it before

Supposedly I was prepared

Self deceit! My dreams were based on lore

I caved in; I quit; I despaired.

I’ve become confused about life; is it just me

Or does everyone feel it this deep?

Frustration! What is the clue I can’t see?

Why do I just want to weep?

I came to die; it’s all in the plan

Be it late or soon

Death! An ironic end to how it began

Will it come as a boon?

March 1993